At my increasing age I’ve come to notice that meeting new people and making new friends is not something that I enjoy doing. Growing up I was always in a sport group of some kind…you’re almost guaranteed to meet new people and become “fast” friends…but the sad thing NONE of those people…for me at least...were “life long” friends. It’s becoming harder and harder for me to reach out to people and try to form friendships as “what’s the point” we’re not going to stay friends. Yes I know its sad that I think this way but it’s the way I feel. I have TWO…yes VERY small number and sadly its getting smaller not larger…what I would call FRIENDS…I have a few friends (yes FRIENDS and friends are different, friends I would say are more acquaintances but are a little more, and well FRIENDS are the people that will ALWAYS be there for you, and that through the years you KNOW that they have YOUR back…even if they don’t agree or understand they are there for YOU so your never alone) Ok well anyways back to what I was saying…I have a few friends and that’s awesome but the older I’m getting the less I want to even try to make any more of those kind of friends…let alone even THINK about making any more new FRIENDS…I have just been hurt and disappointed every time I even try so back to my thinking WHY EVEN TRY, I’m just sooo tired of putting myself out there only to end up disappointed…yes people I know life will disappoint me but sometimes blab blab blab…I know if I don’t put myself out there then I’m not even giving the chance of “greatness” to form…So here I go on my “New Adventure”--- A few months ago my sister’s best friend Jennifer started joined Scentsy as a Consultant, I was board at work one morning so I decide to check out what Scentsy was all about…They had a Celtic Knot warmer and I HAD to have it! So thinking I’ll just help out a long time family friend I’ll go ahead and order it…I got it in a LOVED it! She was hosting her “launch” party and my sister was coming in to town to go Soooo I decide that I would go not only to smell all the scents that Scentsy had but also to see my sister…My wish list of scents soon filled the back of the catalog and a few inside pages…Jennifer told me about “baskets” parties and I was like well I’m pretty sure I can do that for a few weeks…I did and sold WAY over what I even imaged…and the best part I ENJOYED IT…I did not have to “sale” anything…I did remind a bit but never “pushed to sale”…After talking to Jennifer after the party ended…I went home and talked to Trey A LOT…I decided that not only is this going to be a fun way to “make a little extra money” It will be a GREAT way for me to overcome my growing dislike to meet new people and to make new friends and even FRIENDS…So I Joined Scentsy and became a Consultant!! I’m excited about my new adventure and hope that this will help me move towards overcoming my silly ways!
Sounds like a fun way to meet interesting people! I "get" your thoughts about forming friendships because I kinda feel the same way. It's not like I'm opposed to making new friends, or even that I have low expectations, it's just not something that I go out of my way to do. I think it's partly because we grow up and become busy with our own lives, jobs, families, hobbies, etc. and "friendship" as we knew it when we were younger isn't as high a priority...but, then we feel like we're not supposed to lose that desire to bond with others in that way. At first, I thought I was losing interest in something very important, but I don't really feel that way anymore. It's interesting to me that you have shared this though, because it makes me think that maybe I'm not a hermit in my cave!!
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